i dont want medication

don't lie to me
tell me something true
'cause i'm only free
when i look at you

and you look so good it hurts
and love, i come undone

but i don’t want medication
just give me liberation
even if it cuts my legs right out from underneath
don’t give me medication
i want the real sensation
even when living feels just like death to me

so don't paint my face
i need to see the scars
so i don't forget
the back of my tutor's arm

'cause i just can't keep it straight
which kills and which one saves

‘cause the truth is i need you just like the air i breathe
just like a freight train needs the tracks beneath
i’d rather suffer my whole life and be this rich man’s wife
if loving you means suffering
[derek webb - medication]


guess that's exactly how i'm feeling right now. i realize the extent i need Jesus more and more every day. the further i learn about the depths of myself the more desperate i become. and i think that's okay.