i think i must have bad judgment or something. or sometimes i just dont care. it seems like the same things continue to happen to me. you'd think eventually i'd learn, but it keeps changing shapes on me. and you'd think eventually i'd get very lonely, but i always bounce back. fast, too. i think the dam has to break continually in life. the good thing is, im used to that now.sometimes i wish i could go back to when i was a kid and the strange fence in the woods behind my house was the biggest mystery out there. i miss pretending i was a mermaid or a princess or someone really beautiful and important and it was never strange. i miss being romanced by the fireflies or the moon or the picture of leonardo dicaprio i had on my wall. sometimes that feeling still finds me. and its still just as childish and far-fetched as ever. why cant real life be so romantic. every girl still wants to be someone's leading lady and every guy wants to be someone's hero.
sometimes it feels like bad is beating good. it feels like bad is fighting harder than good ever was. i seem to hear bad more than i hear good. bad's voice is much more audible. but i dont think i care anymore. i think im jumping in anyway. i know it's cold. i know i cant hold my breath very long. im jumping.
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we can't have the good without the bad. and of course bad's voice is more audible. it's always easier to pick out the things that are wrong or hurtful or sad in a situation. as humans i think we naturally react faster to things that make us feel anything besides happiness, because when you're content nothing is happening. which is why you're content. you don't have bad judgement. you're just learning and reacting. that's life.
jump in to what? i have no clue what you are talking about. wish i did though. then maybe i could give you some great advice.
stephen, i appreciate your sarcastic anonymous comments on my blogs five minutes after i explain them to you.
you are one of the few things that are beautiful and important in my life.
Sounds like a rough patch... or it is that people have a consistently rough and just experience good patches... I don't quite know.
Fact of the matter is, evil IS triumphing over good, and will continually do so until the return, at which point it will be utterly crushed, but goodness knows when that's going to be. It's easier to hear about bad things going on because good things don't sell, or hold much interest to most people. This is the world we live in, and it sucks in general.
You are a truly beautiful and important person, and when you aren't feeling it, it's because you are being lied to, and you know that I don't say things I don't mean. You are a princess in a faraway castle... we've had this discussion and I'm just reiterating it... just 'cause a dragon says you aren't a princess doesn't mean he's not going to get his butt whipped by some well armoured knight who happens to be out looking for you.
I'm going to go now, but there are multiple ways to reach me if you want to talk, and if you leave any form of message, I'll get back to you promptly.
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