it's been a really, really crappy week. i've hardly slept, been kind of depressed about all sorts of things, and bad things have been happening left and right. sometimes that stuff seems so unrelenting. sometimes i dont know how to handle life at all even when nothing's wrong. and i wonder where the peace of God is in times like these.
then i go to kate rickles' birthday party. and nothing special really has to happen. i just have to be around the people i care about. and there's community. and then i hang out with jake and trent. and there's more community. and we can sit around and talk or trip each other when we're walking down the stairs or make fun of jake's hair and laugh about practically everything. and i realize i'm surrounded by people that i love.
im reminded of an exerpt from walt whitman's poem "i sing the body electric":
"i have perceiv'd that to be with those i like is enough,
to stop in company with the rest at evening is enough,
to be surrounded by beautiful, curious, breathing, laughing flesh is enough,
to pass among them or touch any one or rest my arm ever so lightly round his or her neck for a moment, what is this, then?
i do not ask any more delight, i swim in it as in a sea."
when im with my friends, i feel the love of God.
even when i feel like crap.
and that's enough.
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aww stephanie, all your friends love you. sometimes nothing makes you feel better than being around the people that love you.
and that strengthsquest thing - a retired college professor gave me a book that normally costs $30 and there's a code on the inside that you put on the site that you can only use once. so you would have to buy the book i guess...
It's weird how we both posted about our friends. I hadn't read yours until i had already posted it. I guess it goes back to us saying the same thing when making fun of Jake.
"to be surrounded by beautiful, curious, breathing, laughing flesh is enough"
... "it's the little things: there's nothing bigger"
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